I feel helpless and alone.
I miss you so much.
I’ve been up crying for the past 2 hours. I don’t know what to do without you. I cannot wrap my brain around the fact that no matter what happens, I will never see you again.
No matter how much I need you, you will never be here.
I miss the little things.
Your hugs.
How much you cared about me.
How you were constantly worrying about me.
Celebrating your birthday.
When you picked me up from school.
Sunday dinners.
I miss you with everything inside of me.
My mother keeps making condescending comments about my weight. She makes me feel like complete shit. I’ve been depressed for almost 4 years, so yes, I’ve gained weight. You don’t understand. He would never of said that if he was still here and that’s the difference between you and him.
I miss you :/
So I have a really big crush on a girl in my grade and I’ve started to try and become friends with her. I’ve heard that she is bi but that’s just a rumor. Of course, I go to an all girl school who hates gay, or anything that isn’t “normal” for that matter.
Shit has been crazy.
I’ve had such extreme low and highs, I don’t even know where I am at.
Will try and keep you posted.
You upset me so much.
I miss my best friend. This isn’t you.
just giving ya’ll an update:
things are going well.
happy.
even though things are going good i’m constantly reminded that it is so easy to fall back into a horrible rut
i just have to keep moving forward though.
if i can get through it once, i can get through it again.
feeling really sad.
but overall i’ve been okay.
I miss you so much.
There isn’t a day that goes by when I don’t stop to think about you.
I’m trying to somehow feel like you’re still here.
It’s really hard though, with all of the time that has passed.
I will never forget you. I love you.
RIP Daddy.
